I’m a very emotional person, and I’m not ashamed or try and hide it, so when others feel the need to be cruel, nasty or hurtful towards me it’s not surprising that it deeply effects me and how I think of myself. I’m certain this is the same for a lot of you too, especially those who suffer from mental health or have confidence issues.
Over the past few years, I’ve come across many people who have acted this way to me, and I’ve also seen it happen to others too, either way, it’s not easy to deal with. I’ve witnessed people jump onto the bandwagon of ‘if you can’t beat them join them’, and that’s really sad to see; there is so much hate out there already and I’ll never understand why people actively create more? That’s why I refuse to join them. I don’t want my loved ones and people whom I come into contact with to feel how I’ve felt and so often feel now; why would anyone want to inflict this?
Maybe I’m not normal? Maybe I’m too different? Maybe I need to change?
It raises so many questions in my head around what’s wrong with me that it eventually turns into me believing what these people say, and truely believing that I need to change.
But, even though people choose to be rude and hurtful, I’ll never allow myself to be that person. I will stand up for myself and my values, even if I don’t fit in with society or what people deem to be ‘normal’.
I urge you all to know who you are, to centre yourself, and continue to be caring, kind and most importantly, yourself.
In the meantime, I’ll try and do the same.
With Love, Luj x